Weight Loss

So about 2 1/2 months ago I tried out for a TV show called "WOW" that they were trying to put on the Oprah Winfrey Network. I was totally excited because I thought that was exactly what I needed to kick my butt into gear and lose this baby weight(and then some). Weight has ALWAYS been an issue in my life ever since I can remember. It's one of the topics in our marriage that I feel very uncomfortable discussing and I hate talking about it because I know I'm not at the weight I should be, but I'm not sure if I could talk about my weight issues with others. It makes me feel awkward... make sense?

Anyways, I really want to get into shape because I really want my kids to be proud of me and I NEVER want my children to go through what I had to go through as a teenager and even now.

So I still haven't heard back from WOW and I'm not sure if I ever will. I e-mailed the host and she said that things are still in the works. So I'm taking things into my own hands(which hasn't worked the best before but I'm hoping with a few things I'll finally be able to get to where I'm happy)

So I've signed up for Loseit.com. it helps me track my food, exercise and calorie intake as well as my weight loss goals, how long until I reach them at the rate that I'm going. I'm very excited to have this and I can see that every day I'm getting closer and closer to where I want to be. Another contributing factor is that our family is planning to go to Brazil in December and I definitely do not want to look the way I look now. I want to be happy and confident while I'm down there and not feel like I need to hide behind large clothes or be too scared to put myself out there and be thinking "what do these people around me think of me???"

It's a hard subject for me to talk about so I'll leave it at that and report progress as time goes on. maybe if I publicly write about it it'll help me to stay on track. Since Christmas I've lost 20 pounds and just need to keep on going.